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It is nothing specialtoday.But there is a thingannoying me--------I don't knowhow to deal with the soical relationship. Some like to please others when they need them immediately; but in daily life, they have never contacted with so called common friends. Others, however, are fond of running theirinteraction in daily life by spending much precious time and limited energy; in general, this type of people have many best friends and classify their friends indifferent grades andtreat them in different ways. In a word, the latter are social and external; the former lack this kind of gift in nature. Nowadays the entire society is alarge social net; every one is a little blot in this larger net. So you may become a bigger blot surrounded by other small ones as long as you properlydeal with yourothers around you.

Ok there is this boy named antwan he goes to my school and I like him alot and he knows that I like him but I dont think he knows how much I like him (I am talkin to him on the phone right now) to tell you the truth I think I love hom but i cant tell him that. cant I ????? he is all that cute but I like him any wayz...........I asked him if he likes me he said I dont know how can you not no if you like somebody...........I am at my daddys house right know so I cant write every thing I want to write in here cuz my dad likes to come check up on me and see if I am on a chat line................I like Antwan so much it aint even funny that is why I think I love him..................we kissed the onther day even though we dont go out yet............I know he lie me too that is why he sayed he doesnt know if he like me or not......I will write more later bye

♥ Antwan96♥

Today was a difficult day. I contacted our insurance company to see about MARRIAGE COUNSELING! We are covered for this (yeah!) Although, they warned me that this only works when 2 people decide to participate. They BOTH have to want IT. I don't know if David wants this. He says he does....

At times, I think that he is biding his time. I don't know if he thinks I will just get tired and leave or that he will get tired and leave.I am so tired...

Who would have thought that a year after we move in together that David and I would be having problems?! Not me, I figured at the worst our marriage would be the normal squabbles about daily life. HAHA! I guess the joke is on me. I got David a card, he never even commented on it, just left it on the sink next to the toilet...what does that mean?! I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP...I DID NOT GET MARRIED JUST TO GET DIVORCED... I took my vows very seriously--I think David was too. We just somehow got lost from one another. I think it was the distance, David was away so much...

I really don't know what to do, my husband barely speaks to me, we don't have sex-at all..it has been over a month now. He no longer finds me sexually attractive--I don't know what's changed--I have not gained weight--I have actually lost weight.

David is my 1 TRUE LOVE in life. I still remember the night that I met him. I never told that I said a prayer that night, asking GOD to let him be the man for me. My wish came true. I don't know what he saw in me, but I wish that he could see it again. Maybe someday I will tell him.

Charlie (dog) has been acting retarded today...he is so wonderful--he makes me laugh :-) I thank God for him...

Here we go again...another drama-filled but boring day at school....you just have to love it right?.....HA! I can't wait til I graduate and head off to NYU! Bye buy by Mississippi!